'Nuffin New

Well. My sister still thinks she owns the world. Yep. That's crap. I think I'm losing the attention of my crush, and that's depressing. Also depressing, he's checking out in under two weeks because he's a senior. Damnit. I'm also waving goodbye to my anonymity. That's going out the window with my trip to China. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited and all, but I've worked on staying under the radar at school, and this will send all my hard work down the drain. Oh wells. Well, that's fun. The only peace I get is on the bus. I turn up my music, and I'm lost to the world for the better part of an hour, and that is really nice. Chaos, annoyance, sadness, love. Well, that's the description of high school.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT THE TRIP TO CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE'S A MEETING ON MONDAY AND I'M GOING TO GO TO CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FINALLY GOT A TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Think The World Looks Better After It Rains

So, I have a lot more to bitch about. Namely, my sister. She thinks that no one else matters at all. She's the center of the BLOODYFUCKINGUNIVERSE and I am sick of her thinking that way. She has this princess complex and it pisses me off. Yesterday, I broke down, and she called me a baby, like crying when you can't hold it in anymore makes you a child. Like being vulnerable at times is bad. I hate her. I don't know why this surprises me anymore, but I really hate her. I can't wait until I am out of the house and away from her. I've been better since I've had this blog, but it doesn't do a lot for having people listen. No one really listens. This blog helps vent my anger, but it's not the same as talking to someone. I just wish that Rhiannon would get her head out of her ass and care about others for once. But I don't think that will ever happen. She'll be the bitchy popular kid, pushing down everyone in her way, and ending up friendless, because she doesn't give a shit about others.

This morning was better, because it had rained the night before, and the world was still fresh. It seemed to be tinted blue, and it smelled, well, like rain. I thought it was fantastic. There was just that light chill, and the clouds were a baby blue, and the sky was orange fading into the purple morning sky. It was amazing. I really felt better. The tea helped too. It a new one I got from Whole Foods, its a honeybush tea. I didn't know there was such a thing as a honeybush, and the tea is really tasty. And it looks like the color peach when you add milk. Nummy!

Nothing Much. Just...School.

Well, the title pretty much tells it all. School has been very bleh lately. I feel like I'm becoming a ghost, that I'm just there. Classes are boring, even Cross Cultural seems to blur. I don't know. I really just want to not have any homework ever again. Homework is a flawed principle. In my opinion anyway. No news from APSA, sadly. But I'm supposed to know by the end of April on whether or not I get this trip to China, so, heres hoping. I hope I get it. I also hope that I can figure out the visa stuff. I'm not sure what I need to do with that. Sighs. So yep. Nothing much.

Mock AP, Mock the AP

My brain is fried after taking that mock AP exam. I tried on the multiple choice and parts a and b of the essays(tried meaning, I tried, but not very hard), but I was so tired, I bullshitted part c. I just didn't care anymore. Well, the point of this mock exam was to know how badly I failed, and to learn how much more I have to study, so I think it's okay. I hope. XD

A No Good Terrible Very Bad Day.

So today, I think my head nearly imploded from anger and embarrassment when during Chinese class, Ms. Ge mentioned to the ENTIRE class (minus a few seniors) that she had seen me on a date. And she even said I was with my boyfriend (that's not official at this point in time). So yeah, I just about lost it. In reality, I played Gun Range on my IPod, and went to the bathroom and cussed at the wall for a little bit. And after that, during lunch, Izzy attacked me with perfume, which I didn't like the smell of, and Braunwyn and Izzy have been pushing my relationship which has really been pissing me off, and  I didn't eat lunch with them today. I needed to cool off. So I ate with Shani, Odessa, and Sarah, and I forgot how goofy and happy they all were. I had lots of fun there. Apparently Shani and Sarah are writing a screenplay with a teacher who murdered a student that he had an affair with, and pigs. They added frogs to it today. Yeah. Chaos at it's max. Not to mention, tomorrow I have a mock AP exam that will take my entire lunch hour. I was not very happy today. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Not counting the AP exam.

Epiphany

I realized I've been snapping at my sister less. I think it's because of this blog. It gives me a place to rant. And even though no one reads this, someone could, if they found it. It's public, and yet private. I like my blog.

Too Tired

I am at that horrible place where I didn't get enough sleep, but I didn't sleep too little either, which means I have NO energy whatsoever. None at all. I almost fell asleep during the all school meeting. I yawn every 2 minutes, and I want to go to sleep!! And I still have all three of my classes left to go. I don't think I'll make it. Blahs.

First Kiss, Yay!

Went on a date yesterday, and my crush kissed me. YAYS! I so totally love that guy! I hope we become official! Yay yay yay! We also saw Hanna, and that was a fun movie. Lotsa blood and broken necks. :)

Total Nerd Moment

I just had a total dork moment as my title states. :) My crush walked me to the bus!!!!!! He's never done that before! Yayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! Progress, maybe :D. Once again Yayyyyyyyyyyyy! I am reminded of how much I adore that guy, and I hope that we can be together, as a couple, before the end of the year. I hope hope hope so!!!!

Day 3, and I'm already pissed. As well as tired.

I don't know why every minute I spend with my sister pisses me off. No matter what she does, she always pushes the wrong buttons. I honestly give up.

 I just want to crash after school lately. I've been so tired, and I have no idea why. I blame school starting at 7:35 and interacting with other humans. Take that humanity! YOU EXHAUST ME!

Also, it was Senior Ditch Day today, and my crush was no where to be seen. T.T It made me sads. I knew he was there in the morning, but I didn't see him the rest of the day. Dang it. And I was all set up with being proactive. Damnit.

Boy Issues (probably one of many)

I couldn't tell if he was ignoring me, or if he just didn't see me. Argh. That's annoying. I've got to be more proactive, I've got to be confident, and I've got to grow a spine. I have to take action. I hope I can take action...

Argh!!!!

I tried to jailbreak my iPod on the school computers, but it was blocked, and I didn't know what the IPSW was. I'm going to have to jailbreak it at home. What a pain!

Sighs

Apparently my dad isn't driving me back home, and that makes me a little sad. I love the times where it's just me and him. Sometimes we talk, and I ask questions, but theres also silence, and listening to NPR on the radio. I'm kinda sad because I'll miss that. 

After the Party

The party just barely ended, and I am exhausted. I played hide and seek with my mildly violent cousins. It was awesome and I am so glad I did. I was a little bit evil, by hiding in very obscure places. But we all had fun, and nothing was broken. No windows, doors, or bones were damaged. YAY! They haven't changed much. They're still going through a lot of family turmoil, but I think they'll improve. I told them to work as a team, but I'm such a hypocrite. I give all this good advice, but I never take it. 

My Little Sister's B-Day!!!!!

I've been helping set up for my 3 year old sisters birthday party. It's going to be so hectic, but also a lot of fun. My cousin is coming, and I have a feeling that we are going to be wrangling small sugar-high children all day. :) It should be interesting none the less. It's snowing, and quite a bit too. I hope I can make it back home. It's going to be freezing cold too. Blah.