I Feel Kind Of Sick

Not disease sick, nausea type sick. I got a preview for the rat dissection, and I'm not sure if I can do that. I used to own rats, and, I don't think I can do this. I love them too much. What if I get one that looks like one of rats? That would be horrible!!!! Yeah. Not fun, at all. I might have to do the dissection though, because Izzy isn't allowed near the poor thing. She'll mutilate it. Poor rats. :(  I cry for the rats. T.T

A Quarter Argh, And Three Quarters Yay!!!

They finally updated one of my favorite mangas, Gakkou no Ojikan, and then they cut it off at the WORST POSSIBLE MOMENT!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYY????????? 

Schools almost out, but even more exciting... da da da daaaaa... the seniors checked out on friday!! I don't have to see the jackass who I used to like ever again!!! Yay!!! 

My grandma dropped off a CU- Boulder catalog and info on anthropology. I think that I know what I'm going to study. I've also taken care of my school service, and I'll have my community service done on Tuesday. I am sooo very happy. I just need to fill out a special event, and one more artifact, I think. I'm almost dones. I also need to take care of some missing math assignments. It's all going to get taken care of. 

I can't wait for the China trip this summer. I'm going to get the Visa application via email, and I'll have to fill it out online. Easy-peasy! My life is going supremely well, and I am extraordinarily happy. Not much to complain about, I am all good.

Back at School

Back at school, after a weekend of reorganizing. And I'm exhausted before it's already begun. It's monday. Still, I must persevere! This is a valiant test of VALOR!!! Not really, I'm just making stuff up to try to get through everything. My comments are babbles of bull. Yep, it's monday.

Movie

Wow, I don't cry much for movies, but the one I just say made me cry. It was called Keith, and it was so sad, touching, and romantic. I couldn't stop watching it. To date I have cried for three movies,

1. Bridge to Terabithia

2. My Sister's Keeper

and

3. Keith

I'll probably find a few more as I go along. Life's like that. It goes along, and you can't stop it, no matter how hard you try.

Happiness and Guilt

Bo asked Izzy to prom! It was so sweet, even if her locker does stink like white out and sharpie. And I'm also feeling MASSIVE guilt. In the excitement I forgot about Chris's passage committe meeting! I am feeling enormously guilty and horrible. Thankfully it got rescheduled, because most of the teachers didn't know where to go. But that doesn't ease my guilt at all. I will make it tommorrow no matter what. I've also got to get that resident evil game to him, I'll have to bring it Monday.

Ah, The Male Part of Our Species

So, I found out yesterday that my crush(who I'd been on a few dates with previously) asked one of my friends to prom. Which basically meant that everything I felt, he didn't, and he was just going along with it. I really feel like my heart was just being played around with. I couldn't eat my lunch yesterday either. I was really upset. I got over it quickly, but today, every time I saw him(which wasn't much, I tried to avoid him) it felt like a knife was stabbing me. NOT FUN! Izzy and Braunwyn think I should ask Chris, but I don't want to. We're good friends, and I want to leave it like that. I don't want to complicate things. If a guy likes me, he needs to get the guts to ask me himself. I learned my lesson with this guy. You don't chase after guys, not if you want to keep your heart intact. So yeah, and guess what. He tried to talk to me today. Yeah, he honestly thought that he could still talk to me like we're good friends. WHAT PART OF THE MALE BRAIN CAN EVEN THINK TO COMPUTE THE BACKWARDS LOGIC OF TALKING TO A GIRL WHO THEY KNOW LIKES THEM, BUT THEY ASKED SOMEONE ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's obviously the part that's MALE. Yeah. I'm pissed as hell right now, and beyond the valley of the hurt. Not a good combo. But I guess this means I'm free to look for other guys now. Yay, me. Braunwyn, Izzy, and I are planning a trip down to 16th Street Mall. Maybe I'll meet someone there. Maybe. All I know is, I no longer have a crush on this previous crush. He is a JACKASS and a BASTARD! Maybe I'll wait on looking for guys. I'm not quite over this one yet.

I'm Loving Basketball!!!

Yeah, the title is pretty self explanatory. I've been playing basketball almost daily, and I'm having tons of fun with it. I still miss half my shots, but I don't care. I'm out of the house, away from my sister, and it's another time where I can tune out the world, or cuss the world out. Whichever one I feel like doing. Either way, I'm still immeasurably happy(er). I can't wait until I'm in college and away from my sister. Her attitude just pisses me off, no matter what. I don't think that'll ever change.