Paths-Lyrics

What are you thinking?

When you look at your screen

When you see my name

Are you thinking about leaving?

What did I do to earn your scorn?

What did I do?

Should I feel so torn?

If this love won’t work for us

Let’s call it quits now

Because if we stay longer

The pain will drown us out

Together we stood

Against a ticking clock

Upon the distant horizon

We saw the end coming

Upon dark horses

Carried on locusts

Bringing doom

If this love won’t work for us

Let’s call it quits now

Because if we stay longer

The pain will drown us out

I saw where we were headed

But I still reached out to you

Now all that’s left

Is for you to do it too

I miss how we used to be

I want what we could be

But I wonder if we ever will be

If this love won’t work for us

Let’s call it quits now

Because if we stay longer

The pain will drown us out

I don’t want to end bitter

Leave loose ends to rot

I’d rather we burn to ashes

Crumble into dust

Then maybe one day

A phoenix will rise

Giving our love reprise

If this love won’t work for us

Let’s call it quits now

Because if we stay longer

The pain will drown us out

I still wish to be by you

Being by your side

It’s like I’m home

But in this time that is now

There’s too much for us to see

In this time

There can’t be you and me

I can’t inflict more pain

By giving you my love

It’ll tear us both in two

So with a tear in my eye

To you

I’ll say

Goodbye

Randomness, Countdowns, and Curiosity

I'm leaving for Mongolia in less than 24 hours! I am delighted and hyper right now!

But I am also starting to wonder if my boyfriend is avoiding me. I got on Facebook, and seconds afterward he logged off. Then again, he could just be busy. I think I'll give him the benefit of the doubt though. Because I love him, and I don't have any reason to think like that unless he gives me a reason. 

I keep unpacking and repacking my suitcases, in the hopes that I can make everything fit better. It may be a little bit OCD, but I do think I need it at this point. I also need to relax and get ready to sleep. Apparently I'm getting put to bed at 8:00 pm. -_- I understand it, but I'll never be able to sleep that early. Meh, I'll just sleep on the plane. Lord knows I'll need to. I'm going to be arriving on a completely different day there. 

I can't wait to see what it's like in Mongolia. And I also found out that I know one of my hosts! I don't think I've mentioned that yet...But if I have, oopsies! 

We're going out to dinner tonight, because it's my last day before I leave. We are going to be getting barbeque!! Nom nom nom!

I might get to be an editor for someone's stories! On Wattpad this writer was advertising for an editor, so she posted a sample paragraph for her story. Those who wanted to be the editors are sending in their edited versions. So I sent one in! I'm hoping that I get it, but I don't know at this point, mostly because I'm not coming back until the 26th. 

I talked to my boss yesterday, and she's setting my maximum work day for ending at 5pm. So this means I'll be able to work a second job at Dairy Queen at night! Yay! I'll be able to save up for...um...something! I'll figure it out later. lol 

Wow. It's just my day for random!

I think I'll end this post before I talk your ears off! 

Have a very good day because I plan to!!! ^0^

Friday

The closer and closer that I get to Friday, the more nervous I get. I just can't believe that I'm actually going! I've been so so worried about everything, but everything is going great! Wonderful even! And to think, I'll be in Mongolia in less than four days. Wow. 

I can't even express how blessed and lucky I feel to have gotten this chance. I kept putting off the Mongolian club because I didn't think it held too much for me. But it did, it does, and it will. Something tells me that this will somehow exceed my China experience. 

When I get to Mongolia, one of my hosts is a girl I know!!! She's one of the students that came over here during spring break!!! That just made me squeal in delight when I knew. Yayayayayay! And that just put cherry icing on my cherry awesome day!

BAT!

Okay, so last night I had one of the scariest experiences I've had so far. So far mind you, because there will probably be others later.

I had already fallen asleep, and I was sleeping on the couch downstairs because we had company at the house. Around midnight I woke up to this tap,tap,tap! on the window. And it was constant. It sounded like someone was either trying to quietly open the door, something was messing with the door, or a moth was caught. I flip on the light downstairs and it looks like nothing is inside. So I head over to the door, fully prepared to scare off a grizzly or call the cops on a pervert. In front of the door was a curtain. I pulled the curtain back and sitting at my feet was a small, brown bat.

The bat was about nine inches from wingtip to wingtip I'd guess, and six inches long, if I were to wager a guess.

So I draw in a breath, and the bat flies straight at my face! I kid you not, I started screaming my ass off. I dived for the door heading upstairs. People were still awake and talking upstairs and so I got them to come down and help me out. My stepmom comes down with a towel, and her two friends were following. And all the while, I'm getting this "really?" vibe from her. So we're all downstairs and the bat flies straight at my stepmom and I (we were next to each other), who follows my example, and we both scream again. So it turns out that me and my stepmom cower in fetal position in the corner while our company opens up the doors and shoos the bat out.

Hilarious, yes. After 24 hours anyway.

But yes. I was woken up by a bat at midnight and terrified near to death. It took me about half an hour to calm down and fall back asleep. 

:) 

Life is never dull.