Close to School

School is so close, I can almost taste it. It tastes like fried Parmesan chips, not too bad but also kind of acrid. But there's also a ton to look forward to. I have friends to see and go downtown with and a friend who's introducing me to new music this year. His name is Elias and he's in a band. They're actually not bad. I'm planning on spending more time out on my own and less time at home. We'll see how that goes though.

About a week ago I spent Lughnasadh with my stepmom, Dad, and family friend in our Ger(Yurt). We did a ritual in which we meditated and prayed and gave thanks for the harvest that the year had brought us. We did some knot magic and then we just drank wine and talked and ate. It was amazing. And it was the first time that my Dad had done something like that with me in the vicinity and it was shocking to me. He'd always been the atheist, the one who didn't cave to any religious ideas. And now, having him perform magic with us, it was amazing and powerful. At least in my mind it was. And I can't wait to do something like that with him again. 

Dad's going in for surgery on Monday. And I'm kind of sick of it. He's been to the hospital way too much in the past five years. I just wish he'd get better. I wish that hospitals didn't cost so much. I wish we didn't have to worry about him getting sick. But with all the luck that I'm hoping for, Dad will be healthy for the rest of his life. 

I spent the past five days with my cousin and we just got to hang out. We got to go downtown and shop and be girls for once. Or at least I did. 

My cousin's the only person I am 100% myself around. So it was incredibly freeing to be able to let loose. I never get to go shopping and just have fun with my girlies. And these past days I did. And I loved it. I can't wait to do it again. 

I need to start writing again, lyrics and stories. But I lost my muse...And I need it back, desperately. My readers are probably furious with me. lol