Exhaustion

Well, in the grand scheme of things I have been really tired as of recent. I could blame it on a variety of things, such as my tendency to only get five hours of sleep a night, my school work load from senior year, and ever increasing stress from not just school, but friends, clubs, and all manner of social interactions. I fell asleep at 7 last night, a phenomenon that has only happened a handful of times since middle school. Craziness. 

And where life has been chaotic, it's also been good. I've been making more of an effort to learn Spanish, and my friend has been learning Portuguese. We're each others motivation! I have an idea for a new Passage, but I'd have to talk to someone I don't know that well. And that's the only thing that would make me nervous. A student at my school is constantly on the piano and I find myself finding any reason to listen to them that I can get. They're amazing. 

I've been working on a new song of my own, and it's going to be the first one that I'll be putting music to. Piano and guitar to be exact. The piano was inspired, and the guitar is really just for me. I started playing over winter break and I've been loving it. Playing guitar has been a good stress relief for me and I just enjoy playing. I hate feeling like I'm jumping on a bandwagon, but my mom pointed out something last night. She asked if I was going to give up everything I loved because someone else was doing it too. And when she put it like that, I decided no. If I were to do that, I'd be giving up everything I cared about in my entire life. So I'll just do what makes me happy. 

My love life is dead, as always. But I don't really care. I'm holding out for college. Hopefully. I mean, if my crush is suddenly interested, then I might make an exception. But as he was out to lunch with another girl, I think it's unlikely. Meh, that's why I always have more than one crush. ;) And to be honest, I like the other crush a little better. I can really talk to him, which is rare for me. 

And one more thing...

I'm 18! 

It's a landmark in my life, supposedly. I haven't noticed much of a difference though.