Birthday

It is now my birthday, and I am 17! Not too much has changed in the past week besides my age. I'm still fading into the background, and being ignored by my friend. It's just annoying now. I am so close to just going up to her, and demanding answers. As much as I don't want to lose her, being ignored for this long hurts. But back to happy thoughts. 

I've been really getting back to one of my original love's. HORSES! I started watching Heartland, and not only am I in love with that show now, but it made me remember why I liked horses so much. This revived my dream of having horses, and living on a ranch. But it wasn't just the show, it was when I was up in Gunnison. When I was up there, it was so open. Peaceful. I guess that's just the feel I get from ranches, and horses. And that's really what I crave. To be somewhere where I don't need to feel stressed or rushed or where things are neverendingly chaotic. It's just slightly upsetting to think that chaos is how most people live, how I live most of the time. Some people never take the time to be surrounded by grass, and just lay in the silence. But when you do, it's the best feeling ever.