Sinking

Lately with my friends I've been feeling that my opinion is sinking further into the background. They tell me I should socialize, but then when I want to say something, they don't listen. For gods sake, I said I was going to be a nun, that I was running away to Switzerland, and that I was really a boy. No reaction. None at all. I just thought that was sad. I mean, if no one listens, how do you make them? And if you do make them listen, is that right? Wouldn't it just be better to be silent than to force others to hear you? Such is my internal dilemma as of late. 

My story writing is going downhill. That doesn't mean I'm out of ideas, it just means that I'm not writing. I get so caught up in other things that writing seems like the last thing on my mind. Behind family, friends, boyfriend, homework, and relaxing, plus lack of sleep, I just can't seem to put aside time to write. It's crazy but true. Normally I write, or if I'm slack on time, I draw. But I haven't been drawing lately either. I have no clue what's happening, but it's making me nuts. I kind of need to write, and when I'm not able to, I lose it a little. This blog kind of counts, and it takes some of the nutty away, but not all of it. It's enough to keep my sanity anyway.