Sigh of Relief, Which I'm Having a Ton of Lately.

She's talking to me again! As I said, I'm so relieved. I really was upset at her rejection, of both me and my choice. It took two and a half days before she got over it. But now that she is, I'm joyous. I was just stressed about it, because she really is one of my best friends. She's dragged me out of my shell, and because of her, I became more social. If I was left on my own, I have no doubt that I would still be a book nerd. I've formed an attachment to her, which can be dangerous for me. And I know it too. Yesterday when I came home, Mom asked me what happened. I tried to keep it vague, because I knew that if I went into details, I would either end up screaming or crying. Fortunately, I ended up crying. I guess that's what connections like that do, they cause you pain. I was so hurt that she hadn't supported me like I had done for her. So now that we're talking again, I am going to try my hardest not to argue about Zeek. He's my boyfriend, and she'll just have to deal with that. I'm so happy not to be getting the cold shoulder anymore though. I don't think I would've been able to survive the rest of high school without her... socially anyway. :) 

But I now have a new goal: DON'T FORGE STRONG CONNECTIONS TO PEOPLE!!! 

It just leads to too much pain. With the exception of my family. And Zeek. And Braunwyn. They're already too close for me to be able to push them away. Even so, a little part of me is laughing and saying,

"Good luck with that." 

Well, it's a hope. I just don't want to feel pain like that again. 

There's an internship opportunity at Denver Health that I'm hoping to try and get. I figure I should try to work with the living before I head for the dead. That way I know if I'm missing anything. A well informed decision is a good decision. I think... Oh well. Here's to hope!