Life As It Goes

I'm just going to give a summary of everything right now, just because I feel the need. There are many different things going on in my life, not as bad as other people have experienced, but I still feel like something is going to happen, and I'll be tossed to the wolves. Things are just too good right now, so I know that things will crash. 

As stated in my previous post, I have a boyfriend!!! I met him over the summer in China, and apparently, he liked me then. Here's the catch about the summer though, if I haven't mentioned it already. While we were in China, some and most of the people he talked to said that I was only hanging out with him because I felt sorry for him. And do you know what that is, THAT'S A LIE! When I heard about that, the first thing that went through my mind was, "Bitch say what?", which is pretty extreme for me. I was just so taken aback that anyone would think like that of me, especially when I felt the total opposite. Over the summer, I really liked Zeek, but I stayed back because I thought he had a girlfriend (which I think I've mentioned before) and because I didn't want to be the reason for another girl's heartbreak. So yeah. And now, he's my boyfriend. We were IM'ing on Facebook for about a week, and we talked about a lot. Mostly just friend type stuff. Then I found out that he didn't have a girlfriend, he just lied and said that he did to get the guys from the trip to stop trying to set him up with someone. Then I found out that he liked me from a story he sent me. So then I sent him some of my stories, and said as much in one story that I liked him. So we were able to establish that we liked each other. Then he asked me out in a way that was so sweet. We were playing would you rather, and in his final question he said,

"Would u rather live your life the way it is or would u rather be my girlfirend ( Yes I am asking)"

So yeah. That was that. Needless to say, I said yes! And I am so happy! A guy really likes me and I really like him, and yes, we're dating! So I am happy about that! 

But yes, as many people have said, he lives in another state. He's in Washington, DC. So this is a long distance relationship. And with that comes a lot of worries. First there is the very scary statistic, 95% of long distance relationships don't work. Second, there is the distance. Anything can happen because of that distance, so to be honest, I am slightly worried. Not just because of the distance, but because I googled his name (And this isn't just me, he also googled my name before I googled his) and I found a profile that said, as a self proclamation, that he was a player. But that profile was made and last accessed in 2007, which is five years ago. He was eleven, and a lot can change in five years. And that is what I'm banking on. 

Back to the non green eyed monster stuff, I can't wait to get back to school. I want to know what people say, especially when I see them in person. Also in school, I get to get back to my friends. Over the long weekend, I have been extraordinarily out of touch. So I can't wait to get back and see them.

In February, I'll be going to my first...Well I don't know what to call it. Some people I know have a band, and that band is preforming at the Gothic theater. All I know is that I actually want to attend one of these performances before my senior year. So that will be fun. I also want to see what type of music they play. So yeah.

The chaos in my house is FINALLY OVER!!!! Here is what happened, in a nutshell. My sister said she hated my mom, which led to a full 36 hours of silence between the two unless it was necessary. Not only that, but the levels of tension were so high in the house, that I think you could cut the air with a spork. And not to make this about me, but this is the only place I can make this about me. I had to float around both my mom and my sister, and try to keep everything from blowing up. It was exhausting playing the peacemaker, and when the conflict was over, I nearly cried with relief. The storm had passed.

Or has it...

A tarot reading that my step mom did definitely foretold chaos this year. A lot of relationship stuff too, which also worries me a bit. So maybe the storm is still here, and I'm just in the eye of it. I hope not, but I can't help but wonder. 

Will things start flying again? Will chaos decide that my life is it's playground?

Like I said though, I hope to god not.

And wow...I can't help but notice that I'm beginning to sound EXTREMELY self centered... I must fix that. Because I really hate sounding self centered.