Today was amazing. We spent the day at the zoo with the Mongolians. They're only here for two more days. :( The Navajo leave tomorrow morning. I'll miss them when they go, all of them.
The best and worst parts of today came later, after we were back at school. Everyone(meaning most of us) were lying under a flowering tree at the front of the school. The petals were falling off, the sun was shining, and I was happy. Lkhavga, Alta, Kayla, Olivia, Katie, and Jason were there. And of course there was Chris and I. It was almost magical, like a kind of heaven. I was lying on the ground and Chris's head was on my stomach. My eyes were closed and it was amazing. Chris would hold my hand at times, and even me.
Enter Jason.
My eyes were closed and I was sitting there soaking in the sun. Chris was near me, which is most of the reason for my happiness. Then Jason kissed me out of the blue, and on the lips. As teenager-y as this sounds, this was a complete violation. I almost felt sick about it, it was that bad. I almost cried because this was only the second kiss I've ever had with a guy.
The only good thing about this was Chris. He comforted me and didn't let me go until I felt better. He stroked and kissed my hair, held me, held my hand, and kept me from crashing. I don't think he knew how much that meant to me. I never wanted to let go of him to be honest. Chris asked me why I trusted him, and I answered instinct. But there's so much more to it than that, even if it was true.
Chris has never given me a reason not to trust him. For ages now, no matter how much he jokes, I know that I can trust him. He's never betrayed me, and I don't think he will. I love him and I feel complete when he's with me. And when he isn't, he's in my thoughts. I know that he won't hurt me. And he said he loved me.
It was beautiful, almost like a fairytale being next to him. The light literally glinted off the side of his face and reflected in his eyes. The petals kept falling and the flowers laid a beautiful background. If I forgot what had happened earlier, this would've been one of the best moments of my life. :) Yes, I'm cheesy.
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