Well Then

People...Are...Evil...

So I did break up with my boyfriend today for three reasons.

1. I didn't feel the same way anymore.

2. I couldn't see us going anywhere.

3. I had feelings for someone else. 

The guy I think I mentioned in the previous post, yeah...Well. Back in the academy in Arizona, we were up on a different floor and having a dance party, just us kids from our own city. Soon one left, and then the other. Then it was just me, the guy, and one of my friends. She's my Clyde and I'm her Bonnie, lol. Then she left. And it was just me and him. So we sat down and talked. And then there was a movie moment. We heard the door downstairs click shut and that was our only entrance to the school and to the dorms. And we looked at each other and said, 

"Oh, shit." 

So we were locked out for the next half hour, just like in a cheesy movie or in an anime. Yeah...So, we started having an awkward conversation in which we realized that we both like each other. But the timing was horrid. I was still in a relationship. 

People on the trip actually asked if we were a couple and I honestly think it was a sign. Or at least a hint. I don't know how things are going to go, but I know where I want them to go. But I guess I'll see. And that's just life. I feel something with this guy, and I don't know what, well actually I do, and I want to see where this goes. 

I talked to my stepmom about it, and she congratulated me. I wasn't offended, I was incredulous. She said she saw this coming from a mile away. So did my Mom, and my Dad, and my 12 year old sister. As did my friends who were joking about taking bets. Apparently I was the only dense one. 

And I still feel like a cheat, even though my stepmom says that it wasn't a real relationship. I'm guilty as hell. And I honestly don't know how I'm supposed to feel about this. Strange but true.

Life...

Is...

Um...

Chaotic.

Well then...
This sucks. 
Argh...
I wish I knew what to do now.