And I'm not even kidding about the
title. Recently, parks are where it's been happening. Last Saturday,
I went and hung out with Chris in a park near Belmar. And that was
amazing. I'm not even sure if I blogged that. If I haven't, here's
what happened. We had to leave our electronics in a safe place,
because we didn't want the water to get to them.We waded up and down
a stream for a good few hours, and then we went and hung out at
Belmar. Wading up and down the stream was the best part. He held my
hand practically the entire time, and had to catch me a few times. It
was amazing, and so beats dinner and a movie. Then we visited an
asian market, and got a few things there. Then we went and sat on a
tire swing at a playground near where he used to live. It was nice
too. It was dusk, which means that the lighting was ghostly, but at
the same time, it was perfect. Yay for parks!
And today...
We hung out in another park, but one
closer to where I live. And today, that's when everything clicked
into place. We were having fun, we had sat by a stream on another
side of the park and played the pocky game...And the pocky
game...well let's just say, IT'S EMBARRASSING! One person holds one
end of the pocky in their teeth, and then you both try to eat the
pocky. And the first one to pull away loses. I always lose. LOL. Then
we crossed into another part of the park, and sat by another stream.
He asked what was on my mind. And what was on my mind at the time was
that I wanted to kiss him, but I was scared. I was scared that he'd
pull away and that by kissing him I'd wreck everything. When I told
him that (after five minutes of attempting to stutter it out), he
just held me. When he did let me go, he went wading in the stream and
sat on a rock a little further up, at a drop in the stream where the
water flowed over like a waterfall. He motioned for me to come join
him, and I did. The water was cold, but it was worth it. I sat next
to him, and he took off my glasses. I asked him why, and he said that
he thought it was obvious. And with me being 100% dense, well, it
took me a while. And when I did get it, I was almost scared to even
hope. But he kissed me. He actually kissed me. We were sitting there,
in the water, and he was holding me and kissing me. When we pulled
away, he smiled, and said, “I guess this means that we're dating.”
And my heart just fluttered at that. I was so ungodly happy that it
should be illegal. Because even then I'd do it to break the rules. He
then pulled me onto his lap, and proceeded to pretend to drop me in
the water, which didn't work, since I clung to him with everything I
had. In my defense, that water was FREEZING. And he kept kissing me.
To be honest, most of what we did in the park was kiss. And he had me
chase him, which made me realize that I had no stamina... But, when
we did talk, I knew that he was worried. He was worried about hurting
me, and pushing me too far. But the thing is, it's because he's
worried about it that I know it won't happen. I trust him. If I tell
him that it's going too far, I know that he'll respect that. I
promised him that I would tell him when to stop. And I will. After
the park, we sort of just walked around, until we found another
stream. :) Then we picked up sakura petals and tossed them in and
watched them float. While we were down there, we were in between
buildings and a construction site. The hilarious part of this was the
security guard. He asked if one of the cars was ours, and we said no.
And then he said,
“Just behave. Okay.”
And that just made me laugh. Chris too.
It was funny because we are the last people that would be doing that,
in that place. Sure we definitely kissed <3, but we're still new,
and that won't happen for QUITE a while yet.
Chris and I are going to wait to tell
everyone about us for about a week-ish. And there are very good
reasons for it. I've liked him for two years, and so I'm delighted
that we're together now. See, the thing is...He's one of the
panelists who is deciding whether or not I'm traveling this summer...
So yeah, awkward accusations could ensue. So, we're waiting until
after everything. But I made him promise me to make the right
decision, the unbiased one, the moral one. So I know that he isn't
picking favorites. I made him promise me that 100%, because it
wouldn't be fair otherwise. And I know he will, because he is one of
the most amazing people I've ever met, and I know that he can. I know
that he was worried about it, which shows that he will make the best
decision on who gets to travel. And honestly, if I don't travel
again, I'll be okay. I've traveled once already, and so if I don't
go, and someone who hasn't traveled yet does, I'm okay with that.
Everyone should have a chance to travel. And if that means that I
don't go, so be it.
So yeah, that was today.
I'm so in love with Chris that it makes
me blush upon thought of it. He makes me feel complete in a sense.
I'm not going to let this go, to let him go like I have all the other
guys I've liked. If he tells me to leave, then I will. But until
then, I love him, and I want to be able to show him that. If he'll
allow me to. And I think that he will. Because he likes me too. <3
I'm walking on clouds and sipping
sunshine right now. lol
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